Well I have to say I am failing miserably at Blogging. LOL I
swore I typed some post up at work and emailed it to myself so I could post
when I got home, my job lets my Blog come up but the weirdest thing it won’t
let me post a thing! I haven’t posted
like I should.
Any who I have had the typical life stuff going on working
and school full time and trying to keep my spirits up when some days I just
want to pass out LOL . To add to that my daughter went to stay with her dad for
a few weeks. I wish we were the parents that got along but when I tell you that
man is sorry it doesn’t really explain it. So I have baby daddy issues and a
daughter who is blind to his mess. Oh well.
Now I have said before and well one too many times no more
excuses on this weight loss journey. I come to tell you I have no excuse. None
what so ever but with that being said I have not really said to HELL with this
fat and gotten rid of it. I haven’t been
eating right and this week has been the worse week of all, letting that sorry
man affect me, and then just knowing I am getting so close to the end of my
first degree that I am just feeling tired and then seeking the wrong crap!! I
feel like I am drowning losing my best friend to a worthy cause she is in love
with a good man, but I can’t remember when we just were able to sit down and
talk. I have wanted to talk to her about a situation with this guy she knows
the background etc. She said maybe we could do dinner this week well it is
Thursday and not an invite and I know weekends are definitely really not an
option unless it is group thing. Then I realize really all my other friends don’t
know me like she does nor those other good friends do not live close at all.
That makes me sad too how pathetic am I?
Well I need to pick up my big girl panties and get over it because I
love her and wish her nothing but happiness even if that means that it feels
like losing my friendship.
Speaking of friendship I said I wouldn’t mention this blog
to her it I hit 20lbs lost, remember I wanted to get back to the initial 10lbs
I lost and then hit the 2nd set of 10lbs. Well I don’t have good
news. Let me update you on these numbers and like I said I have no excuse because
I have done nothing to change it.
June 17th – 288.8
June 24th – 287.6
July 1st – 286.8
I have lost a whole 2lbs in 3 weeks LOL, SMH seriously. I
would be down more I am sure of it if I didn’t eat sugar and damn it finished
homework at night and did some exercises. At this rate she won’t know about
this blog till like December or the New Year. I think my body has been trying to tell me
something though. One of the ladies on my weightless FB page posted a pic of a
man in a doctor’s office. The man was looking at the doctor with that look of I
have an excuse as to why I weigh as much as I do. The caption on it says “What
fits your busy schedule better, exercising one hour a day or being dead 24hrs a
day”. I mean you have to laugh at the truth at this point because this weight
is not going to extend my life in anyway. My body for the past week and a half
has automatically gotten up by 6:45am some morning 6:30am. Mind you my alarm
goes off at 7am. I can go to bed late and still waking up at that time. You
know I see the time, I get pissed and roll over and try to get back to bed, the
alarm goes off at 7am and I hit the snooze till 7:10am. What I could be doing
is getting my ass up and doing some kind of exercise before I hit the shower
and get ready for work. My dumb tail isn’t
getting the hint.
I am typing this now exhausted but was looking for ways to
distract myself for a moment from reading and completing assignments. My
picking better food options last week did go better than I thought. I need to
figure it out and quick! How can I look better when my uncle comes next year, what
if the girls seriously want to go to Miami next year, and I can’t go and be the
fat friend in the city of beautiful people. I won’t go if nothing has changed.
Also as the picture said do I want to be around a little longer if I can help
it to enjoy my life and not just exist in life?
I am going to stick to my guns and I will be back on Sunday
and post no matter if the news is good or not. This journey wasn’t meant to be
easy. I am by no means an expert, hell I am barely a novice. I am honest and I
am real about the struggles I have and that is all I can ask. Fall, fall, fall,
and fall but it is all about getting back up each and EVERY time!!
Hey girl, this is Kendria from your FB weightloss group. Try not to be too hard on yourself. You can do this. Just keep trying and don't give up. Great post by the way. :) Hang in there girl.
ReplyDeleteKendria, how about I didn't respond to your post directly but instead made a seperate post. LOL what a mess. I am learning though.
DeleteHello Kendria! Thanks for stopping by my blog. Yes I am going to keep trying. The first hurdle is myself being my own roadblock.
Hello Kendria! Thanks for stopping by my blog. Yes I am going to keep trying. The first hurdle is myself being my own roadblock.
ReplyDeleteHi Liz, Great post! Oh this is your girl Crystal from the facebook weightloss group btw, I am always on my husband's email lol so if you see Joseph, that's why. I've hit a wall myself. In fact the great wall of China! lol I keep saying Im going to start once I move to FL but so far nothing and it's been a week and I've been eating BK, Mcdonalds, pizza, ice cream and everything else in sight. (sigh) I completely gave up and I know that my "Operation get yo ass off the couch" needs to kick off but i can not muster the energy for some reason. Maybe I'm overwhelmed, with what I damn sure do not know. Since I moved I'm unemployed now and I need to wrap my brain around that and focus on getting a job. But on the positive side I am always getting inspired in some way to start anew. That is one thing I love about my self is that i can get out of this funk and get determined again. In the next few days Im gonna take it slow and finish getting settled, job hunt and start finding ways to eat healthy on a budget. The apts I moved to has a gym so I dont have an excuse. I lost 30lbs in 3 months and i know I have it in me to lose another 30 if i am determined. Btw i gained back 18 of that 30, its a long story. I actually have a youtube and I recorded the video to that but just haven't put it up. If you're interested i'll post it. Hey i kinda like this blogging stuff! lol Keep your head in it! Lets do this together!
ReplyDeleteCrystal,
DeleteThank you so much for stopping by my blog!! I have to say to see you ladies stop by touched me heart a bit. Yea you are so not alone. I saw today though that you had a very long walk, so you made a difference today. I need to make a difference to myself as well. Yes we can do this!! Yes blogging has been helpful to me and I need to keep it up, I think it keeps me in check. I think there was a difference within myself when I posted a blog more than once a month. LOL