I am now day two into week 3 and I tell you I am not sure if I am getting the hang of this or not. Let me back track just a second her to tell you about my week 2 weigh in on Sunday. I woke up Sunday and I was scared to get out of bed. I do my weigh in when I wake up after hitting the restroom and before I brush my teeth or anything. I did so much better than the week before with food and I even exercised a few days out of the week, but I had this fear of getting on the scale and nothing. Well that is basically what happened I got on the scale and saw I dropped a big wait for it…wait for it… it was .4lbs, don’t miss out on the point in front of the number .4lbs that is it. I got off and back on the scale three times and it said the same thing “Girl get off you didn’t even lose a pound, not even half a pound”. I stepped off the scale in disbelief and moved to the kitchen and made myself breakfast and checked my FB and wrote how upset I was. I almost came to tears when I saw all the great posts that said I lost 31lbs in 5 weeks, I lost 4lbs this week, 6lbs, etc. I didn’t want to cry because my mom would have started on the “I told you stop weighing yourself, remember just eat less, walk, just use your clothes as the gage.” I didn’t want to hear all that, I wanted to see the pounds drop because I am trying to make changes and was frustrated I ate less junk and actually exercised, so I didn’t understand.
Well my FB support group is great!! I say this because I was looking at the comments to me and just post on the page that helped me put things in perspective. There were post from celebrate every loss no matter how little, and then the one that told me like it was. The post that told me like it was told me stop the negativity of being upset over the loss, but be happy I lost it and to basically love myself. It wasn’t rude or mean at all it touched a nerve for a few things that it will come and it will happen and they want it as bad as I do, but I have to believe in myself. Oh it gets better there was post a member put as the reminder that my journey is no one else’s, some journeys are fast, others are slow, some have bumps in the road but the important thing was that we will all reach the end of our journey. Then the ultimate that made my eyes well up and it was a post made for me by the same member that told me to stop being upset over the little loss, but to be happy she posted the Eminem “Not Afraid” video. If you have never paid attention to the song you should. I love to listen to music for lyrics and the lyrics were on point for me!! I was touched by strangers that understood me but were firm with me but not in a “stop your whining approach”. It was all about understand and what roadblock they saw I may have in myself that other people that do not have this experience/weight understand. I have to say I am SO grateful for them! I am emotional and the first thing I want to do is find sweets but I didn’t do that. I did eat a big breakfast but I fought myself to not hit the sugar like I use to before.
Ok now in week 3 because of my frustration with my Sunday weigh in I am going to skip (attempt to anyway) my next weigh on Sunday but instead weigh in at the end of week 4. I think I will make it because my menstrual cycle hit me and I also going to blame that on my weigh in. I get bloated before I start and I started on Monday. I am so proud though because my craving for chocolate is generally out of control but I haven’t lost my mind with wanting to have it. I am not going to lie today I want sure a bit more, so having a gelato snack –um yea I know well that is the plan anyway depends on the options at Central Market today when we go. I have considered cheating today or tomorrow with chocolate but haven’t made my mind yet.
I am so TERRIBLE at water intake!! I had 16oz yesterday and I am barely down the same amount now. I am sure if I increase this water intake 10 fold my progress should be great!! Ok so I did indulge in a small gelato
What got you here won’t get you there.
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