A little background

I wanted to give you a little insight about me. I started a lifestyle change a year ago and in like 4 months I lost 20lbs. Yes I know it took a while to lose that weight but let me explain that I LOVE food, I really enjoy eating although I can be very picky about what I eat. I am a self diagnosed food addict. I can’t go all gun ho and say I am not eating this or that. The “you better not eat ranch dressing” you are such a cow type approach, that you can only have vinaigrette dressing. The other question you may have as well is why “did you stop losing weight, didn’t you feel good”. I did feel good and the 20lbs did make some difference it allowed me to shop in places in the plus section I was able to shop before.  I am my own worst enemy so how I derailed myself. I had to evaluate why would I do such a thing, part of it was because my friends were dropping lots of weight and my process was slow, which I was ok with. I did feel pressure and stress that I think let get in my head way too much and caused me to derail myself.  I am a very large woman and my friends are overweight but I am obese and they were going to boot camp. I attempted to go one time to this boot camp and it was too much for me because my knees are bad, joints are terrible and as a beginner to never exercising to walking and then bam boot camp, it was too much. I felt like such a failure and all they kept saying is “you can do it, you need to stop making excuses you can do it”, but the entire boot camp was modified for me and it was still too much for me at the time. Then my inner me kept going back to the feeling yea I am never good enough, why can’t I make them understand I can’t do the things they can do right now. I am a big girl and yes I am exercising but I need to start out slow like any doctor will tell you. They feel because I am big girl and not immobile that means I can do EVERYTHING! This is not true, yes eventually I am sure I can do all those things but I am not able to start there.

Ok ENOUGH about the past. It is the past and I am ready to fight my demons and move forward in my life. I have decided that I can’t let people make me derail myself to tell me that I will be a failure because I eat ranch dressing, that I can’t do boot camp (to start), that I do get tired from working a full time job and being a full time student and a single mom to top it off.

That is just a small insight to what happened to me last year and I tell you I watched two YouTube channels that inspired me to remember that I am the master of my own destiny to lose the weight and that between the two of them that there is no right or wrong way to lose weight nor is there truly a time line as long as you shed the pounds and you get moving. One channel she lost such much weight in such a short time and the other channel she lost so much weight as well but it took her a little longer. I felt good about knowing it can be done and the only importance was that I start and that I finish!  I am thankful to those Ladies although they have no idea how they have helped me over the months to say: “Enough is enough start and change!!”