I tell you this morning I feel awake and tired does that even make sense? I was walking with my best friend to the company mailroom and I yawned and said I am tired, but I was a little sore and I wanted to tell her how awesome I was last night with my exercise. I didn’t though, like I said before I am going to wait to tell her when I lose like 10lbs so she knows I am serious about trying to shed the pounds. The other reason we have another friend so people see us as the three musketeers, our friend calls us Neapolitan actually LOL. This friend has the best intentions she does but we can butt heads for sure because we are both domineering in nature plus she has more a Jillian Michaels approach to help and I am SO NOT into that approach that just makes me want to jump on them with all these rolls and sit on the person till they CAN”T breathe!! It doesn’t work at all for me I need a Bob Harper type of approach. I don’t mind being pushed but do not drill sergeant me. So we basically always have these three way conversations so I don’t want it to come out by mistake. Don’t get me wrong I would leave my life in her hands and something to know about me I wouldn’t trust really anyone not in my family with my life and even some of my family members are questionable with this. LOL I did feel guilt this morning feeling terrible in not telling her something that she would do nothing but support me on, she would give me the Bob Harper support because she knows I do best in my personal life with that approach. I have to keep pushing forward and talk to myself and say she will understand when you tell her about this weight loss journey and about doing this blog. BTW she told me to do it and she even encouraged me to do YT but like I said I am too chicken for YT right now.
Ok we are at like 11am and I ate breakfast around 8:15/8:30am. I am feeling the um I want to eat brain saying we are little hungry. I have this bottle of water staring at me right now and watching this webinar at work. Good times…um no but yesterday seminar was great though. The water bottle is taunting me why is it hard for me to drink it-errr. I only drank half my cup of coffee this morning; I know I need to drink it. My mom’s oncologist said she wanted to start out that my mom needed to drink more since she has been experiencing joint pain. I was doing that Zumba and with the last walk I took my right hip aches badly.
Man I have no clue what my mom does to broccoli but I tell you I just love it. I like some broccoli and cheese any other way I am like um no, but there is no cheese on these broccoli cuts and they are so YUMMY!! Plus who knew I would enjoy eating squash, she makes them so that they are still crunchy on the outside, mean she doesn’t boil squash till they become mush. She puts in the pan and a little olive oil I think and man I tell you I like it!! My snack today was pretty yummy I am glad to say and hunger did hit me earlier than yesterday. I went with green tea with Truvia and my crème brulee mini rice cakes. It was a nice satisfying treat actually. Lunch was really good which was the squash, broccoli and meatballs.
My mom took a cleanser so no walking today, yes I know you are like say what!! Get your butt up and go and walk, but I don't have my headphones charged and I hate walking alone with no music or nothing. I guess it just reminds me that I am lonely (even when I have music) and I don't mean the company of my daughter who tells me of all the high school drama and I feel the need to say that crap don't matter, please study, pass your grades. Not doing what you need to do is going to hurt you in the long run and how you like the finer things you have to support that habit. Walking with my mom we talk about Adult things, lol now I think about it I am sure my mom is like see you are your daughter now and I am you. These things don’t matter, keep pushing forward to finish your 1st degree, the right man will come along for you, get your home in order (fixing it up), and let's stay on top of Boo (what she calls my daughter) so she goes further than we did. My daughter the first 5 minutes of the walk goes on and on maybe 1st 10 minutes and then she is like over talking, or rather telling me about these silly girls at school and she text and doesn't pay me attention, typical 16 year old.
I have completed my homework I feel achy so not terrible sore but I do feel minor discomfort. I want to go to bed but I know the right thing to do as I drink this green tea and eat some more rice cakes which will put me over calories today is to work out. I am like I don't think I can handle Zumba again tonight. I then feel so inadequate my Zumba instructor (when I had time to go to an actual class) is like in her 50s and teaches 12 classes a week and I am tripping about doing a 3rd day. I need to stop crying and WOMAN UP and do something so I guess I will do dance central tonight instead.
WITHOUT DISCOMFORT THERE CAN BE NO GROWTH!!
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